see · me.

i'm over many people and many things.

you could very well be one of them

what happened to people calling me every night to hang out?

sometimes i wish i wasn't

it was'nt what i thought.

i'm a mess.

i'll keep waiting.

nothing else has ever been so worth it.

i was so happy :]

i hope things only get better

actually, i know exactly what i want. Just making it work is my problem.

i still feel like a nervous little boy each time. yet unusually comfortable.

i want a girl i can have fun doing absolutely nothing with. maybe go for a walk around town every once in awhile. enjoy the littles things and each other.

is anyone else as stoked for the corn maze and knowing the cold and the falling leaves are coming?

i want to move out.
i've been getting shit from the parents for the littlest things lately...its ridiculous.

I've decided i need to stop being a lazy piece of shit and get out and do things rather than waking up at 11 everyday and then just going to work.

Also, i need to meet more people who are down to chill.

things are lookin good and bad at the same time.
listening to lots of cartel and icepick...weird combo.
i want to get a job that will pay just enough to move out.
who wants to go paint?

oh and gf's will be accepted

things are lookin good and bad at the same time.
listening to lots of cartel and icepick...weird combo.
i want to get a job that will pay just enough to move out.
who wants to go paint?

i want a gf.

and im really happy im getting back into painting. shit was in a slump for awhile

why the fuck am i so awesome.

i hope everyone knows to take me completely serious all the time.

life is too short to have fun. duh!

this makes me laugh too much to describe

100 and fuck degrees outside.

TBS was pretty sweet.

hanging with haley FINALLY was fresh.

kind of starting to work again... i wont be a bum anymore.

hopefully my dad will buy me that computer.

anyone wanna give me money for a sidekick 3?

lets hang more often! ANYONE. preferably top mints.

Reno trip/show ended up being fun as fuck. picked on squid alot and hung out with all the reno kids. no beef and they were all actually alot of fun to kick it with. im too tired to go into more detail bout the trip though.

last nights 4th of july was pretty bad ass also. rode my track bike to hopes apartment downtown and got faded with everyone on the roofs of downtown. had lots of fun there. got a flat tire and ended up walking home from some other party ryan and i got a ride to but it ended up being a humungous weiner fest.

Hey Haley, not everything in here is about you. You're not THAT tight. hahahaha sucka :]

ya im pretty over the whole thing. and pretty done trying

i guess its a couple of those weeks.
i havent been as happy lately.
been feeling really scared and nervous all the time for no apparent reason.
i have a feeling its effecting other parts of my life also.

i wanna be stoked on everything and everybody like i used to. everything just felt right.

it's just one of those weeks.

:/

so while i'm asleep my mom and brother had my cat out in the living room. I was sleeping on the floor in the same room, but i was still asleep.

i guess even after i constantly told them they had to make sure all the doors to the room were COMPLETELY shut so my cat couldnt get through them(who is a kitten still and can fit through anything) or so that my dog doesnt open the door, they still managed to leave one of them a little open.

I guess my dog opened the door and let my cat get into the family room with him. I woke up to the sound of my mom screaming and my dog growling like he"s ripping something to shreds.

i went in the other room to see my kitten laying on the floor struggling to move. I picked up my completely limp kitten as he struggled to breathe and watched him die in my hands.

i have never felt this horrible, sad, angry... ever.